A few days ago, a close friend said something that completely got my mind thinking. The irony in what he said is that he's going to soon be getting married to one of my best friends. I was sitting in the living room of their new apartment, discussing the future as they were on the road to the rest of their life. While they discussed marriage, weddings, and having children, I couldn't help but examine my own life and how still it seemed. With a number of failed relationships and failed attempts toward serious commitments, I realized that my life is actually moving pretty rapidly and I wasn't even realizing it. No, I am not dating anyone steadily. No, I am not engaged. No, I am not making plans with anyone for the future.
But I'm also 20 years old. I'm only two years deep into this thing called adulthood. I have made countless mistakes and made countless positive decisions for my future. Within just a few weeks, I will be finishing my second year of college. I have a job already held and secured for next fall. I feel better about my major and my minor than I ever have before. I may not have secured a job quite ye for summer, but I'm okay with that. My life is consistently changing, quicker than I even see sometimes.
With this constant change, I have such an open future filled with opportunities. I am single, which means I can do whatever I want without having to consider how this may directly impact someone else. I am free to try new things without considering relationship impacts. I am blessed.
Although when I see a couple in public, a part of my heart sinks as I wish to experience that. But I will, when the time is right. For now, and for one of the first times ever, I am going to live for myself. Every decision from here on out is going to offer me experiences and chances that my friends, who are settled down with a significant other or with a child, will not be able to have.
Rather than stress because so and so hasn't texted me back, I am going to live for me and do what makes me happy.
One thing I realized a week ago is that I no longer am happy with where my life is at. I am going to a wonderful university in a city that isn't bringing me the happiness it once did. I am surrounded by people who reside in the negative aspects of life. Rather than continue to sit in this misery, I am going to begin making several changes in my life, beginning with how I look at things. Although I wish I was somewhere else, I am going to enjoy exactly where I am. I am going to strive to bring true laughter to the world and keep a genuine smile on my face. I will only be twenty years old for a few more months and I intend to live those young, innocent years to the fullest. Thankfully, I have amazing friends and family around me that are only going to help me pursue and reach this goal.
I encourage any and all of you to embrace the exact moment that you're in. If there's something in your life, or some part of your life that isn't bringing happiness to you, change it. You are the only one with the power to do so. Enjoy your life and obtain true happiness.
God bless.
